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I loved you. I Love You. I LOVE YOU. iloveyou.
You've never really seen me.
years we spent together. i couldn't tell you. i didn't want to.
i was afraid.
Do you remember? You almost kissed me one night, in the dim light of my parents dining room. You'd been drinking and i said no. i didn't want my first kiss to be like that.
You have the bluest eyes i've ever seen.
i wish i had given you my first kiss. It should have been yours. i wanted it to be you.
You left soon after that, but came back a few days later.
My mother and i were in the living room drinking tea.
You told my mother about the girl you were seeing. Had been seeing for awhile. She was a cheerleader, outgoing and fun.
Everything i knew i wasn't
You looked me in the eyes as you talked to my mother.
i walked away.
You've never really seen me.
years we spent together. i couldn't tell you. i didn't want to.
i was afraid.
Do you remember? You almost kissed me one night, in the dim light of my parents dining room. You'd been drinking and i said no. i didn't want my first kiss to be like that.
You have the bluest eyes i've ever seen.
i wish i had given you my first kiss. It should have been yours. i wanted it to be you.
You left soon after that, but came back a few days later.
My mother and i were in the living room drinking tea.
You told my mother about the girl you were seeing. Had been seeing for awhile. She was a cheerleader, outgoing and fun.
Everything i knew i wasn't
You looked me in the eyes as you talked to my mother.
i walked away.
you know how some memories are crystal clear even years later?
© 2009 - 2024 Rikasha
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Yeah I know how that goes.
In that current situation. I can actually relate. 2 Years from 16 to 18. I loved this person but she would always date someone else. She knew I was really into her. We remained best friends. Now she regrets the actions of the past but me being 23 I've been over her for 5 years and don't see those feelings coming back.
So yeah when things like that happen the pain caused is unexplainable. Always asking yourself why am I not good enough?
On a side note you have my sympathy for that. You seem like a really nice person + cute so I wouldn't see why someone like that would not be interested in you. Heck, I would be, lol. Into Anime, Cosplays my favorite series, good personality, good looking.
Funny thing is most of the people I would get along perfectly with always seem to live on the east coast rofl.
Sorry for the randomness there. Going from sad to goofy, lol. (Trying to cheer you up
.)
In that current situation. I can actually relate. 2 Years from 16 to 18. I loved this person but she would always date someone else. She knew I was really into her. We remained best friends. Now she regrets the actions of the past but me being 23 I've been over her for 5 years and don't see those feelings coming back.
So yeah when things like that happen the pain caused is unexplainable. Always asking yourself why am I not good enough?
On a side note you have my sympathy for that. You seem like a really nice person + cute so I wouldn't see why someone like that would not be interested in you. Heck, I would be, lol. Into Anime, Cosplays my favorite series, good personality, good looking.
Funny thing is most of the people I would get along perfectly with always seem to live on the east coast rofl.
Sorry for the randomness there. Going from sad to goofy, lol. (Trying to cheer you up
.)